I ran into a friend last night who had read the post about last Sunday. She asked, “How was your day today? I sure hope it was better than last Sunday!”
I was speechless for a moment, trying to process what had happened last Sunday that was so bad. Because not much could have been worse than what happened this weekend.
I guess that was dress rehearsal. Dealing with life’s little lemons with grace, so that when life throws a giant, ugly, awful lemon at you, you’re better prepared.
It’s still too raw to write about it, and I don’t really have the words, anyways. Honestly, it’s not even my loss, and thus not mine to divulge. The kids are fine, my family is fine… physically. But my husband suffered an unspeakable loss that’s left him hurting immeasurably, and left me hurting to see his pain, and angry to know that it shouldn’t have happened.
This isn’t the kind of lemon that you make lemonade with. It’s a rotten, nasty, awful lemon that’s been shoved into your mouth, and you have no choice but to deal with the sour and the nasty. There is no sweet. This kind of lemon leaves your stomach sick, your head pounding, and your heart aching, and all you can do is hope and pray that the worst of it is over soon, but know that it will never go away entirely. That life is changed and can never go back.
Last Sunday it was about smiling through adversity. This Sunday, for the man I love, it was about just getting through so that someday he can smile again.
This is the kind of adversity that God doesn’t want, that tears His heart apart, but that He will use for good, if we allow Him to do so.
I pray that those most deeply affected by this tragedy will open their hearts and allow God to heal their hurt and mend their hearts. I pray that they will let Him in, so that His Grace may flow and the good that He so desperately wants to give can come forth.
May our lost friend rest in peace, and may his loved ones know Christ’s peace.
“We know that all things work for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28